Cats in the Cradle

This weekend was good, I got a little bit more done to the baby's room and made a few candles.

Sunday was my daughter's step sister's birthday and it was pretty fun BUT it is not often I get to frankly discuss that side of the family. My ex and Renee (step-daughters mom) are on again off again all the time. They fight to the point of blood sometimes and she is usually the one drawing the blood she also has two children from her marriage (still married) that are just sad. I love children but these children make me sad one is obviously a bit mentally retarded and very aggressive toward the step sister that is 6 years old now and then there is the bi-polar brother that is about 16 now and has been in and out of juvenile, drug/alcohol rehab maybe one or twice, and the step sister is so tiny... did Renee take care of herself at all during pregnancy? I lost one3 baby due to a fluke of nature but to have this many children with flaws like that is outrageous and they were all "accidence". Renee drinks, smokes and I am sure smokes pot too and I am 100% sure Courts dad does as well and they live by the do as I say and not as I do philosophy in life... when has this ever worked out? Courtney thinks he is a joke and struggles to even get motivated to see him and if I had my way she would never see him, but then I would not be a good mom and would be can you believe breaking the law if I did not let her see him.
Back to the party, well the little birthday girl was just as cute as can be and all in pink but mom and dad were frowning and muttering how hard it was to throw the party and bitching about the price and that the little girl would not be able to ride the bumper cars… just on and on and on. This poor kid did not ask for you to throw this party and she also did not need to hear her parents that were hung over from the night before talking about the bother it is. My daughters dad still is rarely in Courtney’s life and I threw her parties for years and never once not even while pregnant with her was she a bother. He is such an idiot and during the party while my daughter and husband are standing there Renee proceeds to talk about child support and how much is taken out of his check each month…… what? Why on earth do you care Renee? Why is that your business, why do you care that he paid me $135. for four months and for years nothing. I only have one person on earth I hate and that is Courtney’s father. All I can do in life is love my kids and protect them as much as I can, but so help me if he influences her in anyway with his awful ways I will make sure the Courts take every right he has and since I know my daughter so well I know that she would never go down that path.